Date Night

It's parent's night out at the Y tonight. I took the boys over there so I could have some time to myself. I was going to take myself on a date to the movies but then I felt so sad I came home. I think it's good for me to make time to allow myself to feel sad. I miss Sean so much. It's unreal most of the time that he is dead.
I don't understand how this could have happened. Everywhere I go, I have memories of him. We were a real family. That was really all I ever wanted. I had it good for 9 years. He was the best. I could be my real self all the time and he accepted it. He loved me. He was so amazing. I learned so much from him. It makes me crazy that someone so awesome had to die. He was growing so much as a person. He was the kind of person who made those around him better people too. He would listen and try to understand without judging.
I miss you, Sean. I will never stop loving you!!!